Once in a Lifetime

You and I are once in a lifetime. 

No one gets it, sometimes I don't even understand, but it makes sense-all of it. 

I am wild and you are so tamed. When I fly, I want to go as far away as possible and never come back. You soar, but you always manage to find a way back home, meanwhile I don't even know who or what home is. 

At times it is when I'm with you, at times it is when I'm by myself too; but my choice is you. For now and forever, I choose you. 

I want to love you until my bones become fragile and brittle; until we sit on front porches and reminisce about the first time we met and when we almost walked away from each other. But I couldn't, I just knew that there might be something more. And I hope there is, maybe you feel the same and that is why you are choosing to stay. Whatever it is, I'm glad you're still here. 

You're arms feel like a warm shelter when it rains. I hope you find a permanent home in me too. 

Fear

Living in the fear

That all things might fall apart,

Is no life at all. 

Death Wish

Sinking inside 

Of you was like 

Floating within

Anyone else; 

An action I gave

No thought to. 

You did not feel 

Like a death 

Wish when I fell 

In love with you. 

Still I Rise

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I rise. 

Beautiful Bruises

My ribs are bruised 

From my heart pounding so hard 

Inside my chest

When I think of you. 

Red Blood Cells

I learned online today that a red blood cell has the ability to make a complete circuit of the human body in twenty seconds. 

When you decide to go, it will not be a fast break and I will always wonder if somewhere, in some other space in time, we became all new circuits. 

Our new minds would not fall prey  to the brokenness within us. 

We would not sleep with our backs facing each other. 

We would be able to keep every promise that we made. 

And we would mean it every time we showed our love. 

But although neither of us are red blood cells, and neither of us flow as quickly and cleanly as red blood cells, our circuits will be forever entertained like the beautiful disaster of water that currents make. 

Possibly, It's You.

I know that we are,

But two entirely different people 

But I look at you,

And can't help but feel,

That you're meant for me. 

That we are meant to cross paths,

That we are meant to hold hands. 

That you,

Could show me love again

And that this time,

Maybe it could last. 

Amazing.

It's amazing how happy I pretended to be, when you couldn't find the strength in you to even pretended. 

It's amazing how looking back now, I've never regretted anything more than pretending to be happy and making you so extraordinarily sad in the process. 

It's amazing how different things would have been if I had just been able to show you how badly I wanted out. 

It's amazing seeing where we are now. 

Constant

Spoil me with consistency. 

Not For Sale

My body is not yours to discover and call your own. The rolling hills of my hips are not for sale, and the waves of my hair can not be conquered. Ownership of my body is my own. I scowl at the boys who view my body as something to be had. 

Things That Fall

Petals

Teardrops

Leaves

Snowflakes 

Rain 

Stars

Tides

Eyelids

Time 

Shadows

The sun 

And I,

For you. 

Help me Help you

Everyone is just so sad

All of the time. 

I wish that I could fill the 

Void of emptiness they feel

But sometimes

I cannot even fix myself

When the rain 

Hits the pavement too fast,

And then I become just as 

Lonely as they are. 

Culture

To live in a world

With so many cultures

To live in a town 

With so many cultures

To live within a friendship

With so many cultures

To live a life

With so little culture

Seems to be 

Such an awful way to live. 

Who Am I?

I'm a revelation; I'm a 

Mosaic of Marvel

Taken down 

Time and time again

Resilient

In all of my bright colors

See me 

For I am magnificent

Hear me 

For I have wisdom 

Befriend me 

For I offer friendship 

Love me

For who I am

Bitterness

How do you 

Find it within 

Yourself 

To stop 

The bitterness

From eating 

Away at you

Like cancer

Holy Shit

I didn't wanna fall in love, not at all. 

But at some point you smiled and "Holy shit" I blew it. 

Anything But This

I wanted to write down exactly how I felt but somehow the paper stayed empty. 

I could not have described it any better. 

It Doesn't Get Easier

Maybe if telling people made it better, I would have already confided in more people. 

I would have already put my trust in more people. 

But when it comes down to it, it doesn't make it better. 

When it comes down to it, it has no effect. 

People don't change people, the person has to want to change. 

Don't think, Feel

When we're kissing, don't worry about your chapped lips. 

Focus instead on what my fingers feel like in your hair,

And the pounding of my heart on your chest. 

Don't think about stopping to apply Chapstick because 

My butterflies are filling my throat and begging to be freed,

Threatening to spill into your breath, and I have no time to wait. 

Each slow breath is a line of poetry 

That I can taste on your tongue,

And I'm getting high on your analogies.

Alright

When you press you lips against mine

My entire world shifts to the left

And you're all that's right 

Foreign Friend

I want to be the gentle, warm hearted, light spirit that somebody like you only dreams of kissing. I want to be the mystery that consumes your travels and the taste that rolls off of your foreign tongue. 

Give It Time

I'm not saying that I miss you,

I'm saying that this new day

Sometimes makes me 

Think of yesterday. I'm just saying that I haven't forgotten. 

Yet. 

Redundant Weather

And I am sick of this sunny city,

Sick of these cold people,

Sick of all the warming feelings,

Tired of my rainy self. 

Armor

Kiss me like a sword

And my arms will be the shield 

That will protect you

Somebody Help

You can feel the cold take you away, but your feet are planted on solid ground. 

Maybe you got so good at having high walls that they think that you can help yourself down. 

Maybe you won't end up a pile of bones. 

Maybe. 

People Like Me

Do not fall in love with people like me. 

I will take you to parks, beaches, and attractions,

And I will kiss you in every beautiful place that I can,

So that you can never go back to them,

Without tasting me like poison.

I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible,

And when I'm gone, you'll finally understand why storms are named after people. 

Simply Pretty

Don't try to be pretty. You weren't meant to be pretty; you were meant to conquer the world, fall hopelessly in love with everything around you, and change lives. Don't let anybody ever simplify you to just "pretty".

Last Request

When I die

Don't come to me with flowers

And eyes full of tears. 

Come to me with your favorite book and tell me about it. 

Come to me with your favorite person and tell me about them. 

Come to me with a smiling face

And tell me you're doing okay. 

Don't come to me sad

Come to me happy, 

Because that's I all can request. 

I'll See You Someday

I see you in everything I do. 

I see you when I wake up in the morning. I see you in the tea I drink. I see you in the flowers I give. I see you when I don't feel safe. 

I see you when I turn off my light. I see you in my dreams. 

And I thank the stars every single day for I can still see you even after you've gone away. 

Tense Day

I dread the day

That you say

My name

Next to verbs

That are past tense 

Determination

I'm determined to go where they tell me it's impossible.

To fan the flame with every breathe. 

To walk on water with ever step. 

I've got the world locked up in this soul. 

You Speak My Language

I'm like an open book that only you know how to read. 

Life's Short

I know that life is the longest thing that I will ever do,

But somehow it still doesn't seem long enough 

To see every smile I want to see,

To hold every hand I want to hold,

To fall for everything I want to, 

To love every part of you. 

Drown Me In Return

I do not desire mediocre love,

I want to drown somebody in it. 

Worthy

I want to be the flower you view as too beautiful to pull from your garden. 

Next To You

I do not need somebody to complete me, 

But if you wanted to,

We could walk side by side,

Into whatever is coming next. 

Be Our Author

Just write us a world and lets go live in it. 

Messy

It's all messy:

The hair. 

The bed. 

The words. 

The relationship. 

Life...

Loving You

I’ve finally realized the difference between loving someone and missing someone. When I loved you, you were the world, your laugh was the only thing that stopped me from shattering and the way you kissed me could stop my heart. I do not love you anymore. But I do miss you. I finally see that there are so many wonderful things in the world, I just wish you were still in mine. I haven’t heard your laugh in a few months and that’s okay, I’ve found other ways to hold myself together, but sometimes it plays in my head and I ache for the way it made me smile. I don’t want to kiss you anymore but on nights when loneliness hits the wall and plunges into my chest, the absence of your lips on mine makes me feel sick. I don’t love you. But I'm beginning to miss you.

Realization

I loved you,

More than

I hated myself

And that's how

I knew I was in trouble 

Gentle Soul

She wanted to be

Just like the wind

Mysterious and free

A soul without skin

You could only see her

In the way she moved your world

You could only feel her

In the way she touched you gently. 

Self

I shall take my scattered selves and make them one,

I shall gather myself into myself again. 

Self Reflection

It's so strange to think about how when

You stand on the edge of a beach, you're standing on the edge of a continent, facing an abyss that we know so little about. 

Relatable to how it feels to view yourself, realizing you know nothing about the person that you see. How you're just as vacuous and overwhelming as the massive body of water itself. 

Home Town

Your feet are only roots when you want them to be. 

Don't let anyone fool you into believing 

That you must settle on

The patch of unkempt land on which you were born. 

Lively

I do not want to be jaded. I never wanted to get bored of the little things in life. And I never want to expect the worst of everything. I want to have faith. I want to have hope, a lot of it. I want to be excited every time I go to a museum and squeel every time I go down a water slide. I want to jump every time I head to Disneyland and be on the dance floor even if the music isn't my type of genre. I want to look at the cup half full even when the rest is spilling out. And if all of the fuel runs out, I will find another way to keep going. 

That is how I want to experience my life- lively; the way it should be. 

Lovely Girl

There's a lovely girl,

In a messed up world and 

She struggles to recognize

How lovely she is. 

There's a lovely girl

In a messed up world and 

Now she looks at her reflection and

Believes she's not lovely. 

There's a lovely girl

In her own little world and

She's ceased eating dinner

Because she doesn't feel lovely. 

There's a lovely girl,

Laying on the floor

Even though her bones surely show

She still feels like she isnt lovely. 

There's a lovely girl 

Trapped in her mind

There's a mess in her head

Because she's never felt lovely. 

Im a broken girl

In a messed up world

And now as hard as they may try

I'll never be convinced of being a lovely girl.